Pretend

It could mean to lay claim to. I think most often it is meant as a false front, a false image to deceive. For good or ill. Or both. I think that I have layed claim to my false image. Not so much a poser as a surrender to myself. Maybe it was the vows, however suttle. Temporary island from the punishment of others vows. Free will is quite difficult without wisdom. Wisdom doesn't feed self. What a bind. No cure, only care. Giving space. Holy space. In that hole in your heart. Everybody's got one.
Few kick at the darkness to let the light in.

My ship isn't coming and I cannot pretend.